understoodbyfew

I unconsciously do it when I’m trying to be liked by people. I don’t notice it, I feel more like myself when i’m high or on depressants. it’s sad… I’ve had some out of body situations where I wouldve said something and thought to myself, that was so not me did I really just say that and thought it was cute? I’ve been on a 16 year quest on a search for my true self… help ?

I wish I can stop… But it’s almost unconscious. I don’t realize I do it, until I get confronted. It’s sad, I wish that I had another way to communicate with people by not talking about others…