unoticeable

I just need to lose weight. i need something life changing. i want to feel full of life i need some hope

I always ask myself why am I crying if i should be happy but I feel like i forget how to find it like i don’t know what my happiness is
i feel lost, out of control like I’ve forgotten how to be happy. for example I wake up and smile but i ask myself why am I smiling….
i feel confused i feel angry but i don’t know about what

i just need to find it before it’s gone D: