Breaking Free
21 months ago
See my entry for “run away to a foreign country.”
It took all the money I had, but I did not and do not care. I went and saw places, did things, and loved someone with all of my heart.
I still do love him, too _
I’m trying to keep myself and my mind free, for it is certainly a state worthy of lingering in.
Jan 30, 2008, 01:15AM PST | 0 comments
I would do it again in a heartbeat.
I’m in love with the world and a man.
Nothing could be better.
Also, the drinking age in New Zealand is 18 XD
Jan 30, 2008, 01:09AM PST | 0 comments
It was early September. The leaves were just beginning to change color in preparation for the fall. Bumbershoot was up and running in Seattle, and my newest internet boy had never been. I made him come along with me, a nervous and exciting first meeting. A week later I was in his bed.
He was chivalrous. Very kind, acommodating. His eyes were deep and reflective, and his troubled mind snuck out through them even when they were closed. We talked about everything, shared things we hadn’t told anyone. He claimed a violent mind, a hatred for humanity… but his affection toward me and socially timid manner disproved all of that.
He touched me, the first person to do so in longer than I could remember.
We were connected. We were above humanity. I was on top of the world.
It didn’t last long. It wasn’t entirely mutual. But I fell so fast and so deeply in love with him that it didn’t matter. I lost my virginity to him. And it was beautiful. He made me laugh with every breath, and despite trying to maintain a distant demeanor, he cared about me. Told me he didn’t want me smoking.
We had a wonderful time. First love is such a glorious thing. I had to let him go, as his first love already had him and he wasn’t ready to lose her. But those two months were some of the happiest and most exciting times of my life.
I will never stop loving him, nor enjoying his intimate company.
Dec 17, 2006, 02:34PM PST | 0 comments