unstucked

since I set this goal,I have gained so much weight.I have not even attempted to lose a pound. I have just been eating and grasing like a cow. Now I need to lose at least 35lbs. This time it has to be solely for me. I was losing to look good for the man in my life. He died and so did my reason for losing weight. This time I want to be my healthiest
,feel my best, and look good in my clothes.These reason are more stable than the last reason. I am 5’6 and I weigh 160lbs. My normal weight is 125lbs, so I have to lose at least 35lbs. I will only check back once per week to document my progress. Goodbye for now.

I know this woman who is dying from breast cancer and she brought it on herself by doing drugs and heavy drinking. she is also a very negative person and every one in her family stays away from her. I too stayed away, then she called me when all of her negativity internalized on her manifesting in cancer. I have tried to be there for her, but since the cancer is spreding she is bitter because she has one breast and she made a extremely negative insinuation about my young daugter that just finished high school. This is where the line is drawn. She will have to spew her poison else where. I am out of her life for ever and she out of mine. I will not be at her funeral. She is jealous, angry and bitter and my child and I are the most important to me so she is ejected from my life as of two weeks ago along with all other negative, sick minded,envious people. “Don’t Nobody Bring Me No Bad News!”

I have been trying to get out more, but have not been successful. I don’t know if it is something coming from me or what, but people seem to be so rude and I know myself well enough that I will end up killing someone so I avoid contact and I only go out when I have to. This is not good for my waistline and I have lost all my sense of style and when you don’t look good you don’t feel your best. I got to break this cycle. I am going out today even if for only 15 minutes.