Keri vorpahl

I am so happy…i cant explain this feeling…but it comes from deep down inside. This new person has emerged from within me. I am confident, hopeful, genuinely really happy and optimistic. I used to be so broken and i thought i was incapable of being loved. But i came to a realization. I never listened and trusted in god. I said i believed in god…but i was a fake christian. i went to church but i didn’t participate…i didn’t open up and i didn’t allow myself to feel the grace of god. These past teenage years of my life i have just become more and more disappointed. People who i trusted let me down, guys who i gave my heart handed it back in pieces, and i just felt so hurt. So unwanted, abandoned, unloved,and broken. I was miserable….but i have figured it out. I cried out for gods help and it seemed like he wasn’t listening. Now i know he was…and he was there. I tried doing things my way. I saw a great guy and i went after him and i got hurt. I realized now…we have to do things gods way. If we don’t we just get so hurt and broken. We have to be patient and ask god what his will is for us. If you see a potential guy/ girl you like. Ask god ” is it in your will for me to date this guy”. It may sound crazy but that is what i did. I opened up and i trusted god…i asked him to lead me because my way was just leaving me more broken. God put people in my life. He put an amazing guy in my life and now everything seems to make sense and for the first time in my life i am happy. Genuine….i mean real happy…not the fake smiles…i just wanted to share this with people…because the way i feel now…is so incredible….Thank you so much god!

You never know whats going on inside her mind,
you don’t know the hurt she bears,
you can’t see her desperate attempts to find somewhere to belong,
and getting foggy for her to just keep living on.

She feels like her life is just a waste of time,
that no one likes her,
and she doesn’t understand why,
she just wants one person to show her the difference.
you never she that she’s really not alright,
you never give her a second to show her you care,
because everyone picks on her and you never do anything about it when you there.

you never see her red eyes crying at night,

You don’t see her constantly growning weak,
the thought and battles she will not speak,
her sudden urge to take her life,
cuz this battle she is loosing time.

She just needs one person to speak up and defend her,
to show her that life can be better,
one person to show some reason to keep living on,
because this low feeling is growning strong.

She’s crying for help,
and we all hear her,
but were too afraid to stand up to the people that beat her,
with there loud anticks telling her to just kill herself.

Deep down knowing that defending her,
can change everything in a split second,
wanting to take everything back but you know it wouldn’t help her,

Your part of the cause,
the reason she wants to live no more,
so don’t act so innocent and don’t make a sound,
cuz your the reason she’s buried under the ground.

Shayla…im really sorry for sticking in the backround and also being part of the crowd at times…i promise to try to change things around…i realized that your talking about suicide…i will be here for you and i will be ur crying shoulder when it seems like theres no answer…i promise if you stay i will make a difference and change things around….plz forgive me..i made a big mistake…and it will take a lifetime to fix…HAVE FAITH…AND PEOPLE DO WANT YOU HERE!!!WE NEED YOU!UR WAY TOO YOUNG TO GO!!

i saved my little brother…from a house fire…he was sleeping upstairs.it was just me and my two brothers…one younger than me and one older by a year.i was down stairs doing dishes…and i started to notice that there was smoke downstairs.I ran upstairs into the smoke and told my brother to wake up we had to go.He wasn’t awake long enough to eve realize who i was.So i carried him downstairs.I also carried him outside and then gave him my sweater…it was a cold night around 10.I was battling my older brother…while trying to get my younger brother to safty….it was very scary…but i want to help people and save their lives….no matter what happens to me.