I'm doing 41 things
This one is a tough one for me.. I worry way too much what ppl think of me… its like I think their judging me or something. But in way it seems like I’m judging myself through how I think they see me. Its a bad habit. I know I should just live my life the way I want to live it and do what I want and not give a damn… but its hard still.
vantastic's Life List
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1. find my talent
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2. Practice random acts of kindness
760 people -
3. join the Mile High Club
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4. Stop caring what other people think of me
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5. Think about sex less
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6. be more sexually adventurous
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7. find the perfect bra
198 people -
8. network more with people
124 people -
9. have just one person tell me I have changed their life.
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10. ride in a hot air balloon
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11. do something meaningful
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12. run
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13. Stop depending on having guys in my life to make me happy
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14. live a healthier lifestyle
126 people -
15. not be lonely
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16. Send a message in a bottle
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17. Go to a strip club
220 people -
18. be more outspoken when someone offends me/challenges my beliefs
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19. Try teeth whitening strips
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20. stop thinking about "him"
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21. fall asleep outside watching the stars with someone i care about
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22. Spend less time fooling around on the net and more time actually working
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23. learn to give lap dances
31 people -
24. figure out my purpose in life
1 cheer36 people -
25. make more friends
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26. take a belly dancing class.
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27. stop living in the past
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28. accept myself for who I am and not who I wished I was
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29. stop settling for less than I really want
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30. join toastmasters
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31. Find someone who loves me for me
1 entry275 people -
32. love my body
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33. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
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34. take a photo a day to document my life
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35. take compliments better
119 people -
36. get a great haircut
52 people -
37. finish my scrapbooking projects
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38. Stop talking to myself (yes…I do that)
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39. become comfortable with my sexuality
20 people -
40. go on a real date
94 people -
41. go more regularly to bikram yoga classes
1 entry1 person
Recent entries
Gosh I’m still trying to reach this goal! Yesterday I ran into a guy from my past. At first when I saw him in a store I walked the other direction trying to put myself together and figure out what I was gonna do. I eventually went and found him again and started talking to him. Gawd, you know how it is sometimes when you don’t see someone for a very long time and then when you see them again its like seeing them for the very first time… and you totally had forgotten how amazingly gorgeous that person was! Grrrrr… I shouldn’t be thinking like this! I even initiated a hug with him! What was I thinking? And he told me that I should call him and our mutual friends to hang out this summer and I stupidly said yeah. Well, obviously I shouldn’t hang out with him right? He’s just gonna make me fall into the trap again. He’s one of those guys that can make me completely impulsive!
I finally got my job in march and since then have 2 jobs now. a full-time job as an event planner and a part-time job helping out a real estate agent. Jobs are good that’s all I have to say. Its nice to keep busy but it can be stressful too. I wish my pay was better but oh well.
