varun aggarwal

once in my life i’ll recieve a warm hug from the prsn i love..she has always given me half hearted hugs..which hrts more than nething :(

i wish i get a warm hug 1 day..

i hv to crack CAT..nd go 2 one of the premier institutes of management in india..preferably IIM-A or IIM-B

1.to be settled n stand on my foot..
2.to earn enuf money so that i never say”i cannot wish”
3.so that i hv a chance to prove my lovd 1..that i care 4 her..(i promisd i’ll crack the CAT)..its 4 her..

it may b easy to say..”U can forget the person u love…”..u can try..yes u can try..
but u’ll never b able to 4get that person..
i hv had crushes on every single grl i knew..
but it was different this time..
we bcame gud frns jst 3 yrs bck..
at that time we didnt talk so much..as she was my best frns gf i was protective of her every single step..
i cared for her..
they broke n yr after that..due to long distance..
she used to cry a lot..obviously she was in love with him..nd now she had 2 forget him..
i felt bad for her..at that time she didnt considered me her close frnd..but to me she was more than a frn..a prsn whom i cannot afford to love..i cud not see her like that..so i made every effort to make her feel gud..i used to crack jokes,made fool of myself infront of her,spent every penny on my phn bills jst to talk to her..to make her feel better..
the main motive of my life was jst to make her smile..nd see her happy..
some time later i felt that i hv sm feelings for her..
i kept it inside me..
as she is one of the best lukin females of my colg every guy wants to talk to her..this made me jealous..
with time i developed soo much felings for her that i felt for everyything..
if we didnt hv ne talk to a day i used to get upset..
nd the moment i hear her voice m llike the happiest person in the wrld..
i told my fellings to my other frnd..i thot he’ll gv me sm emotional support..
one day to my srprise..
i got hold of my frns gmail id..
went thru the chat record..
saw one chat where they both were there..
nd what the fck..
she wrote “i want to get rid of this guy..he’s bcm 2 possessive nd irritates me a lot..
i cant get him out of my life..”
then i cried a lot..
well..
i jst cannot write whats nxt coz i dnt want to..
its been so long n i want to 4 get these things that distrb me..

well..5 mnths back i proposed her officially..
she REFUSED..sed she cannot feel the same as i do..
m ok with the fact that she cannot reciprocate ne feelings..
but i cannot forget what i feel for her..nt will nt ever..
its even more difficult for me coz she is the only person with whom i can share anything n everything..
if m sad(depressed of not bein cared for)..which is due to her nt reciprocating..i go to her..i talk to her..i say “i dnt knw to do..m not happy..”..she says it’ll go in sm time..
hw can i ever say her that i love her from the purest of my heart nd will always love her..
i dnt want t o force my feelings for her..m ok with the fact nd i knw i need to ACCEPT it that she cannot feel the same for me ever..
but i’ll try..
1. i’ll try to make her fall in love with me 1 day..
2. i’ll try 2 forget her completely 1 day..
may god be with me..
:(