i want somebody to love me truly and i want to love that person back. i don’t want to feel the fear of rejection or being left alone. maybe somewhere there is this somebody who understands me, finds me beautiful, and can make me feel that there’s no reason to be afraid.
I just came home from my first rhps movie theatre experience! I dressed up as magenta and had lot of fun. Where do we stand – on our feet! Can’t wait for the next time.
it’s an important thing to know some other language than only finnish. i understand english (quite) well, and i’m also studying french and spanish. i hope i will learn to speak them too, and be able to communicate.
fuck finland, really. i’m fed up with this country. my dream is to live somewhere else. if not my whole life, even some years. this place is boring, cold and grey. i want to live on my own and see the world.
one day i will learn this… i type now maybe with 4 fingers. i write fastly, that’s not the problem, but it looks stupid.
Bad habit? yeah. But I got to say, I love it. Good conversation in the coffee shop with Lucky Strike, it’s awesome. Cigarette at night when it’s silent and dark and just peaceful. Small joy of life.
I’ve lost over 10 kilos / 22 lbs. And I will lose more. I will be happy with my weight one day. At least I hope so. There are days when it feels impossible.
I’ve studied french for five years, and now I’m finally starting to learn it. I just started studying spanish. And one day I will learn japanese!
i’m going to see rocky horror in cinema in November and I want to dress up as Magenta!
i don’t remember when was the last time i felt pretty or good about myself. i’ve lost lot over 10 kilos in the past half a year, but i’m not still okay with my body. i see beautiful people everywhere. i love beautiful things. i just want even one person to think i’m beautiful and be able to believe it, even for a moment. i don’t want to feel ugly all my life.
