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I haven’t visited as many as I want to, but here are the ones that I can check off my list…

1 Iowa
2 Minnesota
3 Wisconsin
4 Illinois
5 Missouri
6 Arkansas
7 Kansas
8 Colorado
9 New Mexico
10 Arizona
11 California
12 Indiana
13 Michigan
14 Ohio
15 Pennsylvania
16 New York
17 New Jersey

I guess everyone wants to fall in love. At least eventually. Everyone is pretty much willing to make room in their lives for that one amazing person who makes you feel… I don’t know how it feels. But I’ve read, listened, watched, and fallen in love with the idea of love.
I don’t think sex is love. For women, being close to a man stimulates hormones that make you feel intimate and happy with that person. But that’s not love. It’s a pale imitation. I want to fall in love with a guy that can be my lifemate and not just my bedmate. But it will come. Love will find me as soon as I stop looking for it.

I’ve been having trouble with this lately. Since what seems to be the beginning of time, I haven’t been afraid to die. Ever. I’ve always been secure enough in what I’ve accomplished in my life so far and how happy I am that dying doesn’t scare me.
Now it does. I don’t like that now I’m not secure enough in my life anymore, and that I keep waiting for… something.
No more. From here on out, I want to grab each moment so that if I die before that something gets to me, I will be ready for it all.