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What does it mean to be free more often? I have noticed that as older I get, more responsibilities I got, less free time for my own stuff, the things I like which fill up my batteries. The conflict here is that I do mostly by the book, and no one can complaint about my behaviour or actions, besides, obviously, my self. If I would want a more time for my self, then, someone else would complaint. They might even say that I am selfish. Am I being selfish?