I have a problem… a really big fucking problem. It’s not going anywhere, but neither am I, so I have to do something about it and I think I am ready now. I am so sick of it all, it used to be the only way I could cope with the pain but I do not want to hide anymore. I want to be brave and face the world on my own two feet. So that is what I am going to do.
This summer is going to be MY summer. The summer I learn to be by myself with myself… without anything extra. Just me. Something I have not yet learned. I am planning on using all this time to better myself, work towards my goals. I am planning on doing a lot of yoga and hopefully art, if I can muster enough creative energy. I just want to Create. I want to make something beautiful out of nothing, out of suffering I want to see something good.
I am terrified but exhilarated at the same time.