I'm doing 17 things
I haven’t drawn anything really since May. And all of the “good” drawings I have are from last year or previous, and worse, hardly any are actually finished pieces. I want to not worry about what’ll come out anymore, or any failure. I want to start learning and have the patience to pull out some references or look around at the world rather than just making something, not knowing what to do, have it turn out bad, get all anxious and depressed and not touch paper and pencil in a creative way again for another several months. I want to realize what originally got me into drawing back when I was 10: to turn imagination into reality and to have fun, but also recognize that it will be a challenge and that’s OK, and that it will take much time, patience, and self-belief to make this happen.
vileindigo's Life List
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1. beat social anxiety
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2. list three things every day that made me happy
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3. get in shape and stay in shape
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4. learn 2000 kanji
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5. See Keane in concert
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6. Learn to play the piano (well)
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7. Visit Poland again
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8. Visit Japan
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9. improve my drawing skills
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10. start drawing again
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11. travel europe by train
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12. Stop caring what other people think of me
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13. Get over my fear of horses
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14. See the Dresden Dolls live
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15. Take better care of my pets
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16. Finish what I start
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17. get into a good college
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How I did it: I've actually given up seafood quite a while ago now, just forgot to come back here and update, so I don't exactly remember... I think I was partly ashamedly inspired by my brother, who ate no fish from day 1 of his vegetarianism, but also just measured out what I really thought was important. It's a personal choice, so whatever you do, consider your priorities, and good luck whether you decide to or to not in the end! :) Read how I did it…
I’m probably going to Poland next summer, and I’d love to be travel various parts of Europe as well, but not having a job nor being an adult it’d probably be pretty much impossible. Someday, though…
I’ve been a born-again vegetarian since February, but honestly, not a true vegetarian (obviously, because of seafood consumption). I thought it wasn’t as bad, that they get to live free lives out in the ocean and it’s up to chance as to whether they are caught or not. And I was tempted by sushi and the occasional shrimp or such. I thought, “Hey, other animals kill to hunt!” But honestly, I don’t want to support that killing, even if it is a natural thing for humans to be doing as it is for any other animal. We’re way over-populated and already take too much from this Earth. It’s disgusting how we think everything exists for us. And since we are so smart and superior, and are capable of making good alternatives to flesh, why not? I have not been tempted to eat meat, and I think if I just remember these things, nor will I be tempted to eat fish. And STOP listening to my family members who care nothing about vegetarianism but try to make me think it’s acceptable because it tastes good or because we need “proteins”. A tingle of the tastebuds is not worth a life.
If I’ve succeeded here for at least a whole month or two, I’m going to come back and consider it accomplished.
