vini35

i have had a salary cut. the company is going through tough times and therefore has deducted employee’s salary. the day i read that mail, i felt terrible. i was almost in tears!! didnt want to meet anyone. didnt want to speak to anyone. locked myself in the room. just msged my guy: i am having a bad day.

thats when my mobile beeped saying: Come over. I will give you a hug.

I guess its all about looking at good things in life. My guy didnt even know that i had a salary cut. but he realised that it was something bad enough. just the thought of being in his warm arms, knowing he would take care of things… made me cheer up.

i guess when things go wrong…. instead of dwelling on our misfortune for long, the key lies in looking at things and people you are blessed with.

i want to develop this attitude of looking up, getting up and moving on whenever i am faced with difficulties in life.

but we all know its better said than done. i will try and put up my experiences of when negativity has tried to pull me down and if i have succeeded in pulling up my socks and getting out of it.

i love food… and when you love things made from butter and oil and potatoes and rice and eggs… its a tough task to keep your weight in check. i am just happy that i havent bloated. but i am far far far from being perfect. i am somewhere in between where i dont get compliments of being fit nor am i crushed down by stares and comments that call me fat. i am just hanging in there.

but thats a very uncomfortable position to be in. i want to be fit for once. i am getting married soon and i want to use this most important occasion in my life as the biggest motivation to lose weight.

i dont have a huge unachievable task. its only 5 kgs.

the idea is to exercise… which i do and to control my random eating habits. especially junk food. its actually junk food that i hog that has done me in.

i will lose 5 kgs and thats a promise i am making to myself.

i have no particular reason to put this as my goal. but sometimes life brings along such surprises that i cant remain the ever smiling patient person that i generally am. especially when things go wrong with HIM, i want it to be solved the very next minute not realising that it will take time. i cant wait to get done with it. i cant wait to finish fighting.

thats when i feel i am impatient. i also get impatient when i have to wait for certain things to materialise. i cant wait. its simple enough to write down but when it comes to waiting i cant be so patient.

i hope penning down my entries about my impatience will help me receive some tips as to how can i cool down and relax when i start growing impatient!!

anyone who’s tried this and can help… pls do.