volcanoes

So recently i’ve stopped caring a lot about what other people think of me. My anxieties are what make me quiet. Around people I know I can hold conversations, but around people that make me uncomfortable it’s like I have some sort of selective mutisim. Recently I’ve seen myself be overly shy to a point that it seems like I’m looking for attention. It’s really unbecoming and I don’t want to be that way any more. Sometimes my new found vocalness can come off as bitchy, but to me its better than staying completely silent.

it’s nice to always have my resume just in case, but to really perfect it would be to have more things to put on it, which will only come with time and hard work. My resume is complete for now, but in a year i hope i have much more to add to it. I have completed this goal for now, but really it is never ending

just attended today and it wasn’t so bad. It was awkward and uncomfortable and we all had to get up and teach the rest of the class parts of chapters. I got up and the teacher said i did a good job, despite the lack of eye contact, he also told me that I was a very beautiful young lady. He’s old and his class didn’t teach me much. It seems that this class will be more focused on us doing speeches which is probably good. I was surprisingly terrible at it, I thought. The people in my class are ok. I’m the awkward penguin of the bunch, but they’re all nice and quiet enough. And there’s only eight or nine people in the class. I’ve signed up for an online government class starting February 1 to replace the cancelled one. I’m excited for February. Sad that I’m always excited for the future and not the present, but I’m proud of myself for going today. I hope I can make it every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday here out. I want to finish this goal. I am ready for my life to be more routine and comfortable. I’m ready for a job and for my life to pick up some momentum. Get going. I should post sometime next week.