wandergirl

My life is getting more chaotic than it already is.
I’m trying to find a new life in New York if my contract with the company will end by mid-July.

Yesterday I got mad at my relatives because they were asking me for financial help since they can no longer cover the tuition fees of their children.
It makes me upset that they make babies as if they were in a piggery and in the end they cannot sustain each child. We were never close before, actually they never paid any attention to me at all although i tried to get closer to them, and all of a sudden they are turning to me for help and I feel like being abused now since it’s hard for me to let their kids down.
I wished I could say no and hide somewhere because I have to attend to my personal obligations as well.
My mood had shifted down as I’ve realized that money is what people are made of. It’s true that if you have no money, there’s no honey.
Another thing that makes me worry is that the guy i’m dating doesn’t seem to be really serious with me.
And the biggest mistake I’ve made is to became attached to him, almost being dependent on him. My whole life is connected to that person..like a piled dominos..if one falls, the rest will fall also…

My brother’s eye surgery had been succesful and he can see again which is a miracle. Today’s mother’s day. As usual we all greeted my mom and bought her gifts beforehand (which was her request!). We might have some nice dinner in downtown later. Again my courtesy.

I’m in a melancholic state again because so many factors had occured lately. I just need to sort out my life and one solution is finding my own apartment as soon as possible and maybe go on vacation after my work project is done.