I don’t want goddamn A&F models, I usually go for the lazy stoner musicans subconciously. Oh well, this goal is pointless. How do I know if I can never get a guy? I don’t. I need to quit wanting guys that are too stupid not to want me, now thats a decent goal.
Too hard. I’m a cheating bitch at the moment, and I am going to be single as long as it takes til I can be vulnerable and put myself out there again. I don’t take criticism well, and dating is just opening up a world of hurt. I am single now, and well…I give up on being a girlfriend in general, yet alone a GOOD one.
I wasted so much time and energy with the stupid stoner. He was really attractive but a total tool. Hippies are unreliable, indecisive, and smelly. Avoid them at all costs. I could have been doing something valuable with my time like injecting heroin or jumping my car off of a 1200 ft cliff, instead I dated a hippie. Yuck, I feel unclean.
I wrecked my car (not my fault). I don’t feel as scared anymore because I faced my fear indirectly. I feel way better now and I realize that as long as you pay absolute attention and assume the worst, you’ll be fine.
I can see him and I don’t get angry, we can hang out and there is no awkward tension. We still talk/text but respect each other as friends. FINALLLYYYYYYYY!
Whenever I feel awkward I try to think of a time that something funny happened with someone I love or a time when I got a flattering compliment. I know it sounds childish but its a constant practice kind of thing to feel more confident to gradually change my way of thinking…its a daily practice.
The self-discipline was the hardest part at first. After a while though, I developed a rythm to working out, and I generally go 3-5 times a week for about an hour each day on the elliptical. Its great, makes you feel great releasing those endorphins, and of course your self-esteem gets a boost when you start seeing changes (don’t get discouraged…it happens very gradually but its worth it.)
I hate how I can spend hours on the phone with my boyfriend/friends yet praying or talking to God seems like a burden at times to me. I hate how I can read a Glamour or Cosmo for an hour, yet reading the bible or religious material is hard for me to do…I love Jesus I just want to be more devoted to him. I mean what relationship is more important in life than your relationship with Jesus?
Well…I think once in every girls life (every girl that isn’t naturally blonde that is) hair color should be experimented with. Blonde can be such a sexy, rebellious color…think Marilyn Monroe…it is kind of a liberating thing I think. I have been a brunette my entire life, and generally I dye my hair auburn. I want to make the transition for at least a few months when I am done with college or during the summer…Not yet though.
