waterlemon

It’s not easy living with people who are not supportive of what you want to do or achieve. Whether it’s blatantly airing it out or just making you feel uncomfortable—it stunts your growth.

I am very conscious of the people I’m living with. I am more at ease working in my own space without having people around. I don’t know why.

I am gradually learning to get to the roots of all my issues. From way back when I was a kid. How I grew up, the circumstances that made me what I am.

We all have insecurities but it’s only healthy when confidence outweighs them.

I have splinters of insecurities stuck on my ego. I need a wicked pair of tweezers to pull them out.

I started working back in 05, until December of last year. I took classes in Fashion during the first quarter of 09. Planned to put up a clothing business but didn’t push through because I have no conducive work area. I asked my dad for a studio but it seems like he just flaked it off. Now I’m looking for work full time and until I find a job, I wouldn’t be able to move out.

My boyfriend and I are going to put up a business and my dad was supposed to help fund it, but then he backed out the last minute. We are expecting funds to come in and plan to do all the setting up and marketing before launching on January. Still, this start-up wouldn’t really help with me saving enough money for getting out of the house. I would have to get a real job and take it from there. My role would be mostly consultancy then with the business.

Now while on a job, once I get a job, I’ll be setting up my apartment as my studio and get on with my plan of putting up my clothing line and other handmade stuff. It will be a lot of work, I know, but I am very passionate about this right now. I am willing to do whatever it takes to show my dad that I can do it on my own and I CAN make it.

Sound like a plan.

I am now working on getting a job again. I will have to close all my debts first, then finally move out. I can’t be rash though, I need this to be thought out well before I charge.

Since I live with my parents, I don’t have my own stuff yet. Main essentials would be a bed, fridge, kitchen stuff because I don’t want to live off take outs, and a couch.

My insides are doing backflips. I’m excited. Scared though, but I know I want this. It’s about time.