waveitsalice

i don’t think i have ever had a clearer idea of who iam then now. i understand that generally, i’m pretty reserved, socially conservative, bookish, introverted. things that don’t seem to sound that great as they stand. i like myself tho haha. there’s just some work that still needs to be done and improvements to be made. from there, i hope to be more active, and make more choices for myself, and not follow others even if that means failing and making more than a couple of mistakes. and continuing to make those decisions even if failure happens. somehow knowing myself makes the action that much easier and less unsettling. i don’t have to worry about them being the “right” ones for the person i want to be, because baseline, i will always be that bookish, introverted girl. i have my identity. it just needs some embellishment. some accoutrements. who i am won’t change all that much. maybe on the outside as i continue to develop and hone myself to better things, but on the inside it will be the same. so for this goal, i need to continue to work through my past and think about all that has occurred.