but I waste too many days. I was thinking about this a few days days ago. I’d spent the whole morning playing my guitar. I wrote a song that I’m really proud of, about love and accepting change. I need to do that more often. If that means playing guitar, spending quality time with my friends, walking for hours around big old London, writing poems, doing my uni work, putting my heart and soul into my job or helping someones day with a smile or whatever. When I consider it I could slap myself for letting a day slip by. So I should be more proactive and express myself more.
Jul 26, 2008, 06:16AM PDT | 0 comments
I’ve just left a five year intense relationship after falling madly in love with someone else – though there’s no new relationship there. And now I realise I don’t know who I am. I had this self image that I thought was genuine. But in all the heart break and stress I’ve been digging around inside my head and found that I have strengths and weaknesses I didn’t know. I think being with my ex made me too passive, I lost my anger and passion and I hardly noticed because I couldn’t be myself with her without us having a crap time. I’ve changed a lot without noticing. So my new mission is to get to know me again and really live my life according to who I am and not according to peoples criticisms – though I will try to bear them in mind.
Jul 26, 2008, 05:53AM PDT | 0 comments
Somewhere in the depths of my imagination I have this fantasy about being a new age guru floating through life imparting life changing wisdom. But that’s a load of rubbish. I just want peace.
Jul 26, 2008, 05:40AM PDT | 0 comments
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