I'm doing 42 things
of guilt, shame- from paranoia.
I was expecting someone to ocntact me back and they didn’t, which I didnm’t understand & my mind invented a way that would have been unpleasant to explain it.
then late tonight i got a text which explained it- all was well.
I feel so guilty & ashamed for being alive, at every opportunity I find reasons for things to go wrong, even when they’re going ok.
been in touch with 2 people that are involved in a network/community & helped them- and by doing so I helped me.
when I coach I coach myself. the very process of coaching is healing – for me & the client.
I need to keep on doing it, regardless of money.
I need to coach as many people as possible.
Because I love it- and because it makes a difference it helps people.
Screw the money- I’ll get a job, for now- keeping coaching is important. feeling ashamed because I’ve literally been living in poverty the last 18months is not helping me coach people.
I’ve the job application almost complete, I feel confident about it :) I’ll print off the CV to go with it & bring it into the place tomorrow. I want to speak to the manager as I do so though- best chance of me gettign a job there.
It’s cold int he apartment, I don’t know how to turn on the storage heaters :(
