wellsbell

After deciding I was miserable at my job I decided it was time to really start looking at opening my own business. After thinking about it long enough and having more that one person say I should start this kind of business, I figured it was time to stop talking about it and start doing something about it.

I was having trouble trying to figure out where to start so I found a consulting company that helps individuals start this type of business. I talked to them and things seemed to click so maybe I’m moving in the right direction.

I don’t know what is going to happen but it feels good to do something rather than just talk about it.

We talked things out and we both decided we needed to let off some steam. Things are fine now.

I’ve been pretty much miserable with my job for the last year and I finally let my misery enter my house. I leave for work early (4:30am), get home (4:30pm) and then have 3 kids to feed, clean, and chase until my wife comes home (7pm). She has been gone all day Saturday for the last month so I have to take care of the kids all day alone. Now she is finally home this weekend and I have no interest in doing what she has planned and I SNAPPED!

We have been married for 10 years and this was the worst fight we had. It was about something so unimportant and stupid and now I feel terrible (even though the release felt great – I just wish I had released my frustrations in another way). I am going to apologize today but that still won’t change the fact that I am relatively miserable.

My job provides me with no satisfaction except for the fact that I can provide enough for my family so that my wife can stay home with the kids all day. We don’t live a lavish lifestyle but by no means am I “crying proverty”. I thought the most important thing was to provide for my family so that my kids had their mother at home. I still believe that is the most important thing right now but…

And that is the problem…”but…” I don’t know what to say. Maybe I’m bitter because I don’t get enough “me” time. But on the other hand I know things are not about “me” right now. I know I have to put some of my interests and wants on hold right now.

I don’t know what to say right now. I do know I have to make a phone call to apologize.