wendria

well me and my exfiance have been emailing each other more. and this past couple of days has been awful. he said he still has feelings for me but not anywhere near the same. but i am still in love with him a year and a half later. i’ve been trying to date guys but none of them last. i’m not sure how to meet guys anymore. but worst of all… i have this huge doubt that i will never fall in love again. i don’t want to settle for a second best. i mean how would it be possible to fall in love again if a part of my heart isn’t mine. cuz i think my first love will still always have a part of it.

i am using crest night effects and i already notice a difference! now i just have to start using the crest whitening rinse in the mornings.

well i went today without crying. i am very happy about that. when he had left to japan the first time i had cried for 2-3 months straight. but this time it has been 4 days and i have been able to get through one day without crying already. that is a good sign. plus one of my co-workers and i have been flirting. it’s kinda nice even though i don’t think it’ll go anywhere.