wendybelle

Good men are hard to find… but its even harder when you find your man in bed with another woman. I don’t know if I will ever heal, but bearing the guilt that he wants to kill himself because of the way that his betrayal made me feel… makes me feel worse. Like my being upset is the thing that is wrong.

Every day I grow more tired of watching others benifit off of my talents. I think its time to ‘take back the night’ and use my inner strength to get over my fears and jump into the big girl pool. With the promised riches there also comes the inherant risks… But I am not sure I could feel good about myself if I didn’t give it another try.

I tried to convince my parents to let me take a year off before college so I could sail around the world. They were smart. They made me take celestial navigation. I enrolled in school that fall.
Actually doing the calculations took all the romance out of my figurative ‘sails’
Still miss the connection with the wind… motion without motors…