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Hearts about to blow out of your chest, short breaths, racing thoughts…. How pleasant :)
I’ve had panic attacks since i was a kid. Until a few years ago i never knew what they were until i had a melt down, my legs were shaking uncontrollably, i couldn’t breath, my head felt fuzzy, pacing back and forth from the bathroom to the living room. It’s pretty scary when it feels like your having a seizure heart attack and brain aneurysm all at once, and can actually picture yourself in a coffin. I’ve had countless attacks, some were so bad i had to go the er because i knew i was going to die. Atfer an ekg a prescription for ativan and paxil and a $1900 hospital bill i realized there was nothing wrong with my heart and i wasnt’ going to die. That helped a lot i haven’t had a major attack since then. I’ve gone from waking up everynight not being able to breath, having tunnel vision, body tingling, head feeling like its gonna blow up, pacing around the room, running downstairs, contemplating calling 911, popping a pill when it was very bad, to somewhat controlling them. I took ativan a couple times. I NEVER took the antidepressants, i have another prescription for klonopin, getting used to the idea of taking a new pill isn’t worth it. I dont like pills and i dont want to rely on them, but if it gets to where i tell my bf to take me to the hospital then i’m poppin a pill!! I want to be able to get to the root of this on my own. Taking big deep breaths and telling yourself to shut the fuck up and relax helps. It would be nice to walk into a store and not picture yourself dying in an aisle, or drive somewhere and not imagine yourself getting in an accident on the way. Just be able to go out in public without feeling so crazy….
westcoastie's Life List
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1. Quit Smoking
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2. get out of debt
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3. fence in my yard
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4. renovate my house
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5. Stop living life through my t.v
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6. be more social
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7. Loose At Least 75 lbs By Next Summer
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8. Get a tattoo
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9. Send a message in a bottle
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10. stop having panic attacks
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11. Take a vacation by myself.
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12. visit all 50 states
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How I did it: It was nightime on the 4th of july, we went down by the water and did it while fireworks were goin off and people were near. I had sand in nasty places and soaking wet clothes.... Pretty trashy HAAAAAAAAA Read how I did it…
How I did it: I did load after load after load. For some reason i never do small loads so i let my dirty clothes fill up a basket, that evetually turns into 4 enormous baskets that equal 30 loads of laundry!! So after bustin my hump washing, drying, folding and putting away massive amounts of laundry i am finished!!!!! YAAAAY NEVER again will i be backed up on laundry!!! Read how I did it…
How I did it: Thought about how embarassing it is to be a stay at home mom and have clutter almost everywhere you look lol I'm also dieting so i look at it as not cleaning but exercising with added benefits. Read how I did it…
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I’m SOOO tired of always saying i’m gonna start workin out to loose all this lard that has taken over my life. Not being able to look cute during the summer sucks, instead i have to wear ugly ass mens shirts and sweats, counting down the days til fall so i can wear sweatshirts. I want to be able to wear clothes that were made for me, not my boyfriend. It’s embarassing when you go out and your 4 year old daughter looks better then you, while you look like you’re gonna go work out in sweats weighing 220 lbs. By next summer i will be able to wear shorts and a tank top, instead of boxers and beer shirts!
