whenlovewalksin

been two weeks since last meeting

something kind of weird happened. i had never been to this particular meeting before and never met any one of these people before. after the meeting i got into a conversation with another member. he confided some things he said he had not been able to share with any other person at the meeting. he told me his wife of two years had recently starting showing extreme symptoms of severe mental illness. he is shocked, stressed, terrified and embarassed (as a result of her inappropriate extreme behavior everyone who knows them is shunning them) all at once. he said he has not been able to tell anyone else this until today when for some reason he was moved to tell me. this is a group he’s been very active with for a very long time. these folks are his main support. but he has not been able to tell anyone there about it. he said i was like an angel sent to answer his prayers to be able to tell someone the truth. i don’t get it. i think that some people will hide things out of shame even if, like in this man’s case, there are dozens of people who have agreed to be there for him anytime. and they have kept that commitment to each other for years within the fellowship of their program. still he is too ashamed to ask them for help with this new problem. why? why so much shame? i don’t understand…

for best buy mastercard

i spaced on the due date for my next payment and ended up sending it express mail overnight to get it in on time.

also i accepted some overtime at work the next two maybe three weekends. all of that extra money will go to best buy mastercard. will have to make up that lost sleep and leisure time later.

some lady wore a halloween costume with a gruesome rubber mask on through the whole meeting.

despite that, it was a GREAT meeting.