whimsykitty

wow, so many things have changed and i haven’t been on here in this yr’s time period. it was one year ago this month that i quit smoking cold turkey, baby! it wasn’t as hard as i had made it seem. yes, a lot of things got better at the same time i quit and i had started making conscious decisions about my life and actually sticking to them, but it was still a matter of will power. each day got easier and easier until it turned into wks and months and now a yr! it can be done and without much thought.

Gosh, i had forgotten all about this website, unfortunately, until someone personally emailed me just recently on an entry i wrote a YEAR ago! needless to say, i had an epiphany around the same time that lead me to a very whole, well-rounded mindset. i had attempted talking to yet another psychologist/psychiatrist when he, too, gave me no foreseeable resolution. upon leaving his office my rage consumed me until i realized noone, not one single person would be able to help me, BUT ME! i, alone, could control myself and help myself. sooo, in that moment a wash came over me and i just let it alll go. and that’s what i do all the time. i let it go. it was me getting so upset, it was me reacting terribly, it was me being an asshole. sooo, i just laid-back like i always claimed to be. now, i’m happier than i’ve ever been. i bought a house in november, i got a great partner in february, i removed all the people in my life that were negative and all the concerns that were negative. sooo, it can be done, just find your way to let it go. only you know you; completely and entirely. OWN YOURSELF!

well, not amazingly successful, but i’ve only had 3 cigarettes in a week. that is a feat in itself since i am moving also or preparing for a move. i’m achy, grumpy and feening, but i’m calm so, i htink i’m okay. the headache is gone.