I used to be a serial long-term relationship girl, but I haven’t been in a relationship for a good year and a half. A few (really hurtful) false starts, but nothing that stuck.
I ended the last good relationship I was in back in 2008. I ended it because I was young and stupid and took everything for granted. If I could go back, I would have shaken some sense into myself. Sometimes I don’t feel like I deserve to find a good relationship because I ruined my chances with the person who may have been my soulmate. Meanwhile, he’s in a relationship, and life isn’t a romcom – he’s not going to magically leave her for me if I pop back into his life after nearly 3 years.
I’m starting to feel like I have a better chance at mastering multivariable calculus than finding love (and advanced math is not my strong suit). Whenever I check Facebook, all I see are wedding photos and engagement announcements – and while I’m happy for my Facebook friends and love seeing their photos, it is a painful reminder that I missed the boat.
Step one: believing it’s possible. Here goes nothing.
I’m a full-time student who’s going to graduate with more student loan debt than I care to admit.
About a month ago, I got a part-time job (very part-time – like 10 hrs/week), which is helping me make ends meet. I put half my last paycheck in my savings, but have had to take some of it out already to avoid overdrafting.
I figure if I can put at least $100 of every paycheck into my savings, I’ll have about $1,300 by the end of the school year. Not a bad start, I guess. It would be really nice not to be a “hundredaire” anymore!
I’m one of those ridiculous human beings who needs every possible reminder to get things done. Fortunately, I know it and can generally combat it. But where I get tripped up is in internet-procrastination.
I’d have so much time for other things if I got better at this habit – if nothing else, I’d have more time for sleep!
So, I came up with this idea. I’ve had a few jobs where I’ve had to keep timesheets, and that tends to keep me pretty accountable. After all, I don’t want to write on my timesheet that I spent an hour doing nothing! Then I thought, what if I made timesheets of my life? Nothing too insanely detailed, but maybe an hour-by-hour. It’s so crazy, it just might work.