Dylan

I have a lot of the basic knowledge of website building, but I’ve been too lazy to actually go out and get a domain of my own. I’m tired of having to host all my music on MySpace and my photography on Flickr. So much of my life is digital, and I certainly spend enough time online to have a little chunk of it to call my own. This is another case of laziness and lack of motivation essentially being the only things getting in the way of accomplishing a goal.

I’ve had a pretty rough time with people, from being victimised by bullies at school to being at the receiving end of abusive relationships. It’s all lead me to become extremely guarded and reserved, generally mistrusting of everyone, and extremely introverted. However, I have begun to crawl out of my shell in the past couple years. I almost crawled back in because of a few errors in choosing new friends that backfired on me, but I feel I’m at a better place to meet new people now (when I’m not feeling totally misanthropic and nihilistic). I know now that I am a very good person with a lot to offer and that I deserve friends who will reciprocate those things. I just need to get better at taking that leap in getting to know new people and not being so aloof and standoffish with everyone.

I’ve put this aside for far too long, partially out of health reasons (I have anxiety and panic attacks and it’s considered unsafe for me to operate a car), but truthfully, I’ve just been lazy and fearful about practicing. I don’t mind riding a bike or busing to most places; in fact, I prefer biking over driving, and it will get me to many places I need to be just fine, but I would like to learn to drive just to possess that skill and be more mobile.