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okaaayyy….so a prime example of how badly i screww up ALLLL the time….this morning for brekkie i binged like u wouldnt believe on TOAST….which is alomost the worst thing in the world to purge….thought i was doing the right thing by leaving it a while so that it would be easier…ended up leaving it too long and now it wont come up….what am going to do…i ate enough for like 3 days…does this ean im going to have to fast…im so bad at that too coz eveyone watchs me coz they dont trust that i’ll eat….arghhh LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!

i dont know wat to do…im falling back into mia…..thats not the bad part tho…the bad part is that i binge like crazy and then have to ty an purge it….whyyyyyyyyyyy???...anyway i feel like shit today..i had so much for breakfast now i have to go and try and get it out of my system….if only i had of eaten “purge-friendly” foods. but no…...im an idiot, and im going to screw up my chance of ever being loved coz im so damn fat and ugly…omg, time for me to shut up, im so selfish, i havent even asked how everyone was…im so sorry. hope u are all going ok…hmm, anyway thats enough from me

ok….so i have approx 2 months to lose as much weight as possible…..how much do u reckon i can lose??? im going to really need ur help girls….first i need to figure out how much i wanna lose, then i need a diet and exercise regime….who’s willin to help me???? i dont care if u just tell me wat u do coz mayb then i can get bits and pieces from everyone and make up my own…..but i need ur input girls…..i CAN NOT do this alone…so please, give me any advice u’ve got…id love to hear from u all xoxo