wonderwoman333

well im still trying to have a beautiful body and i do already have one. im 59 kilos which i dont like that much, i was 55 at the start of the year but never mind that. im joining a gym next week! i went and had a look at one and the exercise programs that it offers and im so intent on doing this, i know i can and the support of having people around me doing the same thing as me may just be the push i need to get serious about this goal!!

oh myyyyyyyyyyy god!! i remember writing this, the day it happened and who it was about…it was this guy i had literally liked for years but i was so shy i could barely talk to him, i saw him out of the blue one day and i ran, quite literally ran, i was so afraid even to speak to him!! um so 4 months on where am i? haha well me and this guy went to a party together, at the time i thought i was so lucky and it was so amazing to be with him, i realise now that this was such a big thing for me and im so proud that i went for it but you would not believe how things changed, after like 2 months of getting to know this guy i had had a crush of for like 3 years…i found out he was so not the person i thought he was, and i was a whole lot more of a person then i had ever given myself credit for. what a learning curve i have no interest in this boy what so ever anymore, just because somebody flatters you does not mean they are right for you and this guy is the opposite of everything i will ever look for in the future..im glad in a way that this happened, its shown me that i can overcome what im afraid of, and the grass was SO not greener on the otherside!! everything i wanted was not everything i needed and im so glad this person is not a part of my life and they i have move forward and decided to value my self worth so much more now, and not just be with anyone who will have me

i think to grow we all have to step outside what we are comfortable with and take chances. ive missed out a lot in the past because i was to scared to make a change, even thinking back on this day there was a moment where i could have gone for something, or run away, and i literally ran away. and when i ran back out realising i made a mistake, the moment had passed and he was gone. i want to change so much but the thought of making a big change is mortifying, baby steps is the key..