I'm doing 37 things
still 75
2 weeks ago
Not sure how I can improve this.
x43xxx's Life List
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1. weigh 132 pounds by January 10th 2010
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2. This week, month, year and life:
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3. Take full responsibility for my life
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4. not be so utterly alone
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5. distance myself from my family without burning too many bridges
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6. beat my depression
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7. be unapologetically selfish because in its purest form it is good for everyone
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8. donate or sell extraneous possessions
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9. sort out my priorities
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10. be more attractive
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11. change my humiliating life
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12. decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life
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13. have a BMI of 25
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14. rid myself of responsibilities i've taken on which aren't my responsibility
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15. kiss
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16. improve my facial and bodily skin
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17. move out of my parents' house
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18. get over my fear of doctors
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19. stop insulting, blaming and resenting my family and let it go
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20. overcome anxiety
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21. keep this 43t account
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22. identify that nasty side to my character, give her a name and then eliminate her from my life like she was a friend I'd grown out of
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23. research into local groups I could attend as a means of gaining a better quality of life
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24. not be so ashamed of everything
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25. be fit
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26. get a job
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27. get my resting heart rate down to 65bpm
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28. be the artist I was born to be
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29. be less jealous in July
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30. Transform my life
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31. learn more about biology
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32. visit london
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33. weigh 154 pounds
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34. find a way of getting back into campus based education
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35. admit what I really want
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36. use my passport before it expires
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37. lose 60 pounds
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Recent entries
work out if I've a vested interest in staying this way deep down because something is stopping me (read all 2 entries…)
Worked out
1 month ago
I would say yes and no. I want to protect myself but it has gotten to the point where I feel like I have less to lose. I would say that it is true of the past but not as much now but then again, more in terms of he added pain of feeling older and more alienated. I used to really care about everything and felt like everything mattered so much and now I don’t care about much and feel like less matters. There is something stopping me and however much I don’t want it to be true, it is fear of failure or the pain from doing the wrong thing or making the wrong choice and making things worse.
So over the last two years I’ve been seriously trying to lose weight after lots of half hearted attempts. At the end of last year I put about half of the weight I had lost that year back on. Then I went through a bad time and decided for health reasons I really needed to get rid of the excess weight I was carrying. Since May’09 I’ve lost about 21 pounds and in total from about the beginning of 2008 I’ve lost over 30. It is about halfway of where I’d like to be. I just think I’ve come this far why not aim to be slim. I want to weigh 132 pounds.
