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woooowwzerss.. i haven’t written in forever.. it is now june freakin 6th. so i totally stopped my “diet” the second i went home (i moved away for school but i drive home on the weekends)... i’m serious.. it is IMPOSSIBLE to eat good when i am not at my apt. see.. at my apt. i have no food so it’s easy!! when i’m home.. there’s all this junk food and baked goods and my mom never cooks anymore so all we do is go out to eat. uggghhh. plus i was bloated so i kinda gave up. but i have been in a bad mood lately.. so i kinda lost my appetite. i weigh like 144/145 right now. at least it went down from 147.. cuzzzzzz…. i actually got up to 150 when i was home.. eeks i know. :x well i figured i’m on a mission to lose at least 15 more pounds. i don’t really need to, i actually have a good body.. i’m tall and toned so i look like i weigh around 130. but it’s just for my satisfaction.. i know i could look even better if i lost more weight. wellll.. i want to start writing what i eat again, b/c like i said i am ON A MISSION :D and this helps me..
breakfast-smore luna bar (mmm need i say more)
lunch-nothing
dinner-half blackened chicken salad

anddd that’s it. i’ll prolly make coffee later but who knows. i’m tired. byebye!

i passed the written qualifiers today w/ a 100.. all i have left to pass is the hands-on exam.. which isn’t until june 12-14 anyway. i feel pretty confident about it though.. we had to do a practical quiz today in class which included draping/massaging the leg of our teacher.. and i got the highest grade massage-wise, but.. did the worst draping-wise. hahaha, not that i wanted to expose him or anything, but i guess i pulled the sheet too far over when i tucked it under him that his other foot was exposed. oopsies :X oh well.. i blame it on my nerves :D hehe. anyone out there who did their qualifiers already??

grr.. i am on this new medicine and it keeps me up allll night. i tried to go to bed last night around 12:30 (i had to wake up at 6 for school).. but instead i just layed there and what do you know.. all i could think of was food!.. hahah. my body was literally shaking yesterday.. probably b/c i ate like SHIT last week.. and i actually started eating good yesterday. but anyway.. i finally got out of bed around 1 and went on the computer b/c that usually helps drain some energy from me, but then i got bored and started looking for food b/c i was hungry.. and just as a i was about to bust open a bag of salt and vingegar chips (mmm.. 1 of my ultimate weaknesses).. i decided to opt for another apple :/ apples have negative calories tho right?? so i felt better and then went to bed. bla. soo here i am today. and here is what i ate:
breakfast- nothing (tsk tsk i know.. but i was running late for school)...
lunch-went to tim hortons w/ a girl @ school for our lunch break.. but i just got a plain bagel w/ light cream cheese. and opted to drink my disgusting aquafina water instead of getting my #1 love- coffee (w/ c+s) :(, and a small spinach salad w/ balsamic dressing (the new spritzer kind=1 cal/spray.. loves it!)
..and i haven’t had dinner yet, obviously.. but i have to work from 4-8ish.. so i’ll probably just have toast when i get home w/ some jelly. we’ll see tho.. i’ll edit this later :)