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i need to get back into this cos i have been doing badly for the last few days. i need motivation.

i need to get really really thin. since my exams finished i have been eating loads and i was doing so well before.
its really annoying how the ‘become anorexic’ one has gone cos i went on there a lot.

last exam today!!!!!
that means i can really get down to this now and lose some serious weight.

how annoying. i didn’t eat much yesterday – 265 from food, 110 from a double vodka and diet coke. when i got up i was 124, which is good, but now i have just spoiled it by eating a load of leftover takeaway which has sooo many cals in it and i feel kind of crap about that. but seriously, i was feeling so weak that i couldn’t even think straight and i was like practically having a heart attack too. i don’t get how not eating can make me feel so weak still.

its really annoying cos i saw my bf last night and i have not seen him in like 2 weeks cos of exams and since i last saw him i have lost 7 lbs but he did not notice at all. i even told him that i had lost that and he was like ‘realy??’. i mean how much do i have to lose before it shows? i was 133, now i am 126.

it’s so annoying how faint i get when i don’t eat. i feel so weak after only a few hours after eating and then i have to eat something.
does this go away eventually? cos i seem to remember that it does. i hope it does cos it is soo hard otherwise.

i havnt eaten anything yet but i am soooo hungry. i have no idea how i am going to keep this up till tonight.

go on youtube and look at videos of obese ppl. incredible thinspo.

ok so so far my fast is going ok. its 10 past 6 and i still havnt eaten anything. i am not hungry either which is good. ive got to keep this up till tomorrow night.

Does anyone here find that eating fruit and veg actually makes them binge?
or am i the only one.

I.LOVE.HER.

so i have lost like 4lbs overall which i know isnt that much but it should turn into more because i have a plan for the next 2 weeks-
- fast until suday (tomorrow) night
- eat small dinner on sunday, monday and tuesday (because of exams)
-fast from tuesday till sat 30th, drinking juice when i have absolutely no energy.
sound good?

ok i dunno if u know this but i was just looking on a site that said that u have to burn off 3500 calories to lose 1 pound of fat!!!!
so a two day fast will only lose 1 pound of actual fat!!!
that is shocking.

fat is SICK

from today onwards i am going to try and cut out carbs from my diet. i did it once before and i did not feel hungry at all and i lost loads of weight. the only problem is that it is not very practical. still i mmight as well try it and see how far i can go. i have my prom on the 30th tho so it had better work.

I hate the fact that i have A levels now. it makes it so much harder to lose weight cos i feel that i should be putting my exams first. oh well, over in a couple of weeks…but then i have the prom! oh god…

wow i havnt written on here in months. i have my prom at the end of this month so i have to lose like a who load of weight by then.

SW : 133
CW : 130
GW : 110

ok so i have got a sleepover tomorrow night which will involve eating shit loads of chocolate and stuff. and i cant refuse cos my friends are so the types who are like sooo pro eating. it is annoying. anyway, it is especially not good cos there is a party the next day and i am gonna have to wear SUPER tight black jeans which are pretty hard to pull off well. anyway, i hate these situations. i hope everyone is doing great. it sounds like a lot of u are. xxx

i am always so mean to him and he is always so patient with me. it makes me feel guilty but i cant help it!

right
tomorrow i am gonna start starving myself properly into a better body. i have been to moderate and so have ended up doing crap. i need to get tough or i cant do it at all. why is this so hard? xxx