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I met this new guy and He is the sweetest guy in the world. He likes me and we have been hanging out for more than a month. For chriatmas he bought me a necklace that is a Journey necklace that symbolizes how out love has grown along our journey together. He has not asked me out yet even tho we already act like we are. I was hopeing that he would ask me on christmas but my dad and I had to leave earily and we did not get a chance to hang out. we talk about 5 times a day and he always calls me and says hey beautiful how are you. I trust him and have heard nothing bad about him from all of my friends who know him, the problem I am having is that he is in canada right now with his friends and there is a girl there who likes him. All of the people there are going to be drinking and i am worried she will try something with him even tho he reasured me that he does not like her at all i shill am worried. I guess I just have to trust him and let what happens happen. Another problem is if i should ask him if we are together or not because I am afraid of what he might say I am afraid of rejection. Any advise would be much appreciated.

<3 amanda

Well I just got a new Camera for christmas and I am hopeing to get take more pictures and really enjoy the new life I am making for myself. I plan to travel and hopefully take some interesting pictures along the way.

I have decided to help myself to get better with my eating disorder.I want to be able to eat many of my favorite foods and not feel bad about it. I have made a goal for myself to tell myself everyday that “I am a happy person who deserves to have a good life full of up and down days, and that that is normal”. And that “no one is perfect”. I dont want to get to the point where I am unhealthy because I see how it effects my family and friends and my relationships in a negitive way, and I dont like that. I am currently going to therapy for my eating disorder and am on antidepressents for my “happiness issues”.I hope that will help with my progress, being in college has put a lot of stress on my self image and on my stress level and I hope to find new healthy ways to deal with the feelings that arrise from this. If anyone has any tips and or advice on any tools they have used to get better I would love to hear it. i want to have a normal life and to make each day count.

<3 Amanda