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Ok so I am totally worn out. I do not have any energy left to exercise after work. I do a 9 hour day in the hot sun working with horses. I’m a stable hand/trainer so its pretty bloody hard work. we have lunch about 12 but after working all morning in the sun u just dont feel like eating. which is good I guess but I have to eat something or I’ll faint. So I’m eating like and orange or an apple at lunch, just to keep me going.

And on top of all that work I still have my job at subway so being around food for my shifts there I don’t feel like eating there. But all the work is keeping me moving and in the last week I have lost almost 4kgs (8.82lbs) YAY! My collar bones and hips are sticking out more and more. I’m so happy.

So I’m not eating much and I am constantly exercising. its so hard but totally worth it. I love horses and love losing weight, I have combined the 2 and I am really happy that everything is working.

I haven’t felt this happy in a long time. I’m tired, really tired but happy. And because I’m happy I don’t think anybody will really pay too much attention to my weight (I hope).

Any way u are all doing good keep at it and we will get there.

Luv yas
Kitty

Ok so I have a new job and its really hard work. Its working with horses so its physical labour like all day I work 9 hour shifts and dont really have much chance to eat which is good i guess. But I do need to eat something even if it is very small because I cant risk getting faint headed and dizzy around horses. So I need to find something that is really low in fat but has enough sugar or whateva in it to stop me getting dizzy. If anyone can help me out please leave me comments.

On a happier topic I weighed myself this afternoon and I weigh 101lbs. I getting there slowly but I’m not working in food anymore so I wont be so tempted to eat all the time, so I’m going back to my water and mostly tic tac diet with some fruit in there too. Just to stop the dizzy spells at work. And if you guys have any foods or drinks that I can eat or drink that are low in fat that will ultimately do the same as eating fruits and sugary stuff please pretty please leave a comment.

You can all do it, just stay focused and stay strong.
Kitty xoxoxo

I cant seem to purge I want to but i just cant seem to bring anything up. I am seriously considering doing what a friend of mine did. I know its even worse than purging but it worked he lost weight so fast we thought he was going to die. But he didnt so its ok. He used pain killers. Take to many your body makes u throw them up, its a poison if u take to many and its a natural reaction. I know if your not careful you can get stomach ulcers but right now I dont really care about stomach ulcers. I just want to lose weight. Anyways Im off to try and purge again.

cheers
Kitty