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I only recently started this. One day I was just so upset I grabbed a blade from the bathroom and made about 6 cuts up my arm. My parents weren’t home. Neither were my brother or sister. I was home alone. Home alone to bleed and cry. I don’t know why I started and all I know is that I don’t want to have to look at my arm and see my memories etched into my skin. I’m already sick of having to cover them up! And I don’t know why but I can’t stop. I started cutting about 4 days ago and in those four days I have cut 3 times. It’s like a drug, once you start, it’s hard to stop. I really need help ..

Quinn Allman. Just his name makes me weak at the knees. He has been blessed witht eh great talent of playing the guitar, the only instrument I’ve ever wanted to play. Quinn is my idol. One day I hope to be as good as him. I have the guitar tabs to every The Used song that I know of and I’m learning to play them all. In music I have a practical assessment coming up and I’m hoping to play ‘Caught Fire’ by The Used. And if I can’t play that song I’d like to play ‘I’m Not Okay’ by My Chemical Romance. Sure enough, someone in my music class will end up calling me emo. I get it everyday. Anyways, I’m straying away from the subject. I have to go anyways. I just hope that one day I’ll be lucky enough to meet my hero, my idol ..

Another goal in my life is to meet Gerard Way. Don’t get my wrong, I want to meet everyone in My Chemical Romance, but there is something about the passion Gerard puts into his music that is so calming and overpowering. Gerard sings with such emotion. It’s like he pours his heart and soul out into his music. Most people only like Gerard because of the way he looks and I’m not denying it, he is hot, but there is so much more than looks. Listen to the music and stop using Gerard’s looks as an excuse to like the band. The reason of liking a band is for they’re music, and I’m pretty sure that is what the musicians want, to be appreciated for there music and help people with hard lives, not to be used as eye candy. But before I depart I just wish to say that the power and the passion of t music keeps me sane and gives me a reason to live ..