It finally happened about a month ago. It was between me and my best friend at our friend’s party. I was really nervous, but he was more experienced so it turned out pretty great. I guess my only regret is that I would have wanted it to be with someone I was dating – or at least someone who would ask me out later. =/ Unfortunately, he’s dating someone else. I guess this just means I get more experience for the next guy! XD
Recently read: Wuthering Heights, 1984
Next in line(soon): Jane Eyre, Emma…etc.
Whether or not this will be completed depends on how my presentation goes on Monday.
Lately, I’ve received several compliments regarding my vocabulary, so I think that’s it safe that this goal can be considered completed. :) I’ll still work on it, but I don’t feel the need to keep it on my list.
I have to stay that entering the NanoWrimo, write 50,000 words in a month challenge was one of the best things I’ve ever done. I have about 51,000 words of my novel written so far(about 180 pages) and although I haven’t looked at it in awhile, I’m fairly confident that I can accomplish it. I can’t wait to finish it and publish it. :)
Since I became a teenager I’ve just completely loathed myself witha passion.
It’s just that I’m just not good at anything…I know anyone will say that’s not true, but I’m just not. I’m mediocre at almost everything I’ve ever tried to do. The only thing I’ve ever been good at was schoolwork…but other than that, I haven’t really had any “talents”. I know this is sort of a rant, but I just wanted to kind of let it all out.
So I wore a skirt twice last week. I’m feeling way too insecure with my body to be able to wear a skirt. Maybe if I lost about 5 pounds I’d be able to wear them with more confidence. I mean, all the girls I know who wear skirts often are pretty skinny. I guess this goal is kind of co-dependent on one of my other ones.
I can’t even keep track of my weight even more. My mom has taken away the scale. For some stupid reason, she thinks that no scale will help me lose weight. I have no idea how much I weight right now. :( How am I supposed to keep track?
So, I was about 135 a year ago, and now I’m about 140. I really don’t want to have to to the doctor for my yearly checkup and have her harass me about my weight and tell me “how easy it is”.
Start Weight: 145(last summer)
Current Weight: 140-142
Mini-Goal: 135
Ultimate Goal: 130
I just feel so fat right now. Especially since all my female friends are these petite little girls who stuff their faces and lie on the couch eating potato chips.Maybe I’m just jealous, but it really bugs me how I’ve been trying to lose weight for two years and it hasn’t worked for me while they lose weight without even trying.
Get rid of the negativity…
I don’t know how to write an entry about this, but I’m looking forward to it. I turned 15 this summer, and I know a lot of kids my age have lost their virginity already, but I’m still looking forward to my first kiss. I’m not ready for THAT yet, but since I’m becoming a bit more “girly” as of late I may actually get asked out soon(hopefully). 15 is a good age for this, isn’t it? Hopefully.
So I had a french presentation this year…my first of the year as well as an English skits(same day, too!). They were easier than I thought they would be. I don’t know if it’s more of an “I’m comfortable with these kids I’ve known for 3 years” or “I’m overcoming my fear of public speaking”. I hope it’s the latter because I hate how I freeze up in front of people when I give a presentation. I need to be more comfortable in front of people, although I think the underlying problem was my low self-esteem.
I was so surprised at how easy it was for me to work drinking more water into my schedule. These days, I drink about 3 or 4 bottles of water in a day, which translates into about 8-10 glasses of water. I love water; it’s so tasty and it helps me lose weight since it helps surpress cravings. Just don’t drink too much; then you start to feel bloated.
Guys, this is the best thing you could do. It’s so fun designing everything, especially when you start to develop a unique style of your own.
Just going to plug my site a bit:
http://eloquent-serenity.org – My Blog
http://fan.eloquent-serenity.org – My Fanlisting Collective
so when better to start this goal. I’ve always been a 90% student but I’ve felt I didn’t study enough. So I’m going to be waaaay more commited on this. My first test I scored 98% so I’m happy. I’m hoping to keep good grades up. I want to get a scholarship one day, so this is the best way to do it. Study, study, study!
So, it’s always been my life’s dream to travel across Europe. France, Spain, England, Germany, Greece(already been there), Switzerland, Italy…..so many beautiful, gorgeous places to see. There’s this site, contiki.com, where they have MANY tours. When I turn 18 or 19 I’m going to go on one(or two) of their tours. Also, Australia, but that’s another goal. ;)
My school’s going to Portugal this year; I may actually go if it’s not too much money. :D
So, I bought my first skirt this year. It’s for school, since we have a uniform. I’m going to wear it tomorrow(if I don’t chicken out – ha!), I’m hoping it’ll go well. Also, on my “clothes list” I have 3 or 4 skirts there. I can start wearing them more often. Also, when I know a wedding’s coming up I’ll wear a skirt or buy a dress. I’m feeling like a girl! _
How could I have gone so long without reading this? I loved, loved, loved it! It was so full of emotion, even if it was a play. And a, the beloved, Romeo. <3 What a sweety. That poor couple. I NEED to read more Shakespeare. Probably MacBeth or Hamlet.
I’ve also read Catcher in the Rye. Holden is such a great character. Very well-written story, even though I’m not completely crazy about it.
Also, Animal Farm. So many political parallels in some a strange book.
As for classics, I’ve decided to write a small list of the ones to read. Maybe find one online or something as well. I’ll probably post it once I finish it.
So I’m anywhere from 137-138 for now! Almost there. Once I reach 130 I’ll judge whether or not to lost another 5. I’ve been doing treadmill 3 times a week for exercise. Hopefully it’ll help.
I sounded so depressed and giving-up in the last entry. I AM going to try to lose weight. I really am. It’s just hard, as I’m sure everyone who’s done it knows. So I’m already a third of the way there, since I started at 145 and I’m at about 137-140 now. 130 is what I REALLY want to way. I know I’ll feel better about myself. Good luck to me!
So I’ve gotten a little better at basketball, so I’m hoping to join the team this year. I’ve soooo scared to make a full of myself in front of others. I mean, I feel like I’ll be laughed at because I’ve never been very athletic. I just hope I’ll get on. Finally I’ll be able to say I’m part of a sports team. I’ve always loved basketball too. I’m going to try out for badminton this year.
