I'm doing 74 things
so, so many people want to do this.
for me, i wish i didn’t. i really really wish that i could just harbor in me a complete and total indifferent attitude for love, like the kind i put off most days.
but deep down i want it. i want to fall for someone hard, and i want someone to fall for me. i want someone who can deal with me when i’m a bitch; someone who deals with my hypocritical rants; someone who can understand the unconventional romantic side of me. i don’t like traditional romance. i think flowers are boring; if you’re going to spend money, buy me a damn cd. i think dinner & a movie sucks, let’s go mini-golfing. and god knows i’d rather you be happy and us be off doing something half-fun then pretending to enjoy ourselves slow dancing and having a strict ‘you call me, i call you’ ritual. honestly.
even though i know it doesn’t happen like that, especially for a girl like me. i tell myself it won’t, i tell myself to give up, but i just can’t.
so thus it remains a brutally honest goal, to my own dismay. then again, it isn’t really my fault – i am a teenager, after all, and we are engineered both socially and physically to be in love with love.
