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I don’t want to go to work this morning lol. I’m going though. It will help my day go faster….although not being awake at 6:30 would do that too.

Yesterday I wanted to binge all day long, since Rich left and I hate that. I wanted chips and crackers and stuff with cheese or icecream…but I didn’t eat any of that junk. The only problem is that keeping myself from doing that kept me from eating much of anything. I ended up eating a luna bar (180 calories) and drinking green tea (0 calories) as my sustenance for the day.

I didn’t eat anything unhealthy!

Oh and I was feeling all blue and mopey all day, thinking I was stuck alone for two weeks…then last night the hubby called to talk and guess what? He will be here thursday or friday!!!! They are coming back for the weekend. I only have today + 2 to wait!!!!

You can’t imagine how happy that makes me. I’m dressed so I’m going to power nap for 20 minutes and then go to work. Later everyone! (hmmm I just remembered that I can’t remember the last time I weighed myself…I know the weight just not how long it’s been, certainly a week…)

Ugh. I had too many calories today. The food wasn’t that unhealthy so that makes it better. I had some lean chicken with potatoes earlier for lunch but dinner was not healthy whatsoever, I ate a few chips and a sandwich, french bread with pepperoni and mozerella toasted and all melted. Good but not good for me. I guess it isn’t so bad it’s not like I have eaten anything unhealthy or too full of calories for over a month, so I’m sure one day doesn’t hurt.

I am not very happy though. My husband is leaving again! Another two weeks without him. I hate this. I wish he didn’t have to do all of this but apparently these short things are in preparation for his float he’s going on in march. I am pretty happy he’s going on a ship instead of going to afghanistan or iraq the whole 7 months. He’s already been deployed to iraq twice. I really wish this was over with. I wish he was finished with the military and we could start our lives. But he has another four years of uncertainty left.

I really don’t enjoy the thought of another two weeks with him away, so soon. He just got back and life is so much funner when he’s here.

I will make it though, and I have you guys and some friends here this time to get me through.

Wow my job was an incredibly good workout today. Definitely counts as weight lifting and cardio…hours and hours of weightlifting and cardio lol. Like 9.5 hrs. Nice.

I am surprisingly not that tired atm though. I feel pretty good.

I had a luna bar (180 cals) and a green tea (70 cals) for lunch. And breakfast was orange juice (60 cals). I certainly burned all of my cals and more today so I should have gotten around to burning off my stored nastiness.

love you all