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6.Looking at pictures, taking pictures <3.
theres nothing quite like taking photos and capturing a moment, whether one of happiness or one full of meaning and emotion. personally i love looking back at them and remembering the crazy nights and times ive had

7.Music
makes me so happy, and it also cheers me up when im sad and some songs are good for reflection, i love bus journeys just listening to music and thinking!

8. Music festivals/ gigs
kind of follows on from the previous but i love the atmosphere of being around fellow people who love the same music, only been to three music festivals, but a LOT of gigs i wish i could live at music festivals, the people there as so friendly the funniest yet meaningful chats around the fire, i even enjoy being dirty ha…i do not enjoy the toilets so much but thats all part of it :)

9. this may be a tadge well a lot superficial but really fit men make me happy, just to look at makes my day :)
the following people if i saw in the street i would be estatic
dougie poynter, robert patterson, bam, ryan phillipe, the guy from 100 days of summer cant remember hes name but oh so yummy

I replaced love with food,
and activities with boredom which again leads me back to food.
Im a happy person overall id say bar this eating so much crap.
Im even hungry most the time but ill see something to eat and ill eat it.

i need to change this now

This is one of the hardest things ive ever had to do in my seventeen years upon what i now perceive to be and endless pit of pure misery for the most part. Yes ive become somewhat negative i spose, im tired of being positive, but i will for her. hes not only her father but i guy i consider my second father, our families lived next door and we grew up together and when they moved we moved and so happened to get a house up the street. Hes 44 years old, what can i do, nothing. Theres nothing in this world more frustrating than being helpless. hes got a brain tumour, but im going to help my friend ill be here if it kills me,i wish i could take the pain away. but yet again i cant. ive never really believed in god since my nan died at 6, but i cut a deal with the guy if he let him live id start believing again.