I remember my ex boyfriend and I making love in the rain. We weren’t outside getting wet, but we had our own little secret “spot” where it was very private and very sacred to us. It all of a sudden got dark mid day and as we were having a sweet conversation about our future, it began to thunderstorm. We looked at each other with faces that asked, “should we go?” and instead of turning on the car to leave, he grabbed my hand and held it tight. I leaned in and kissed him, somehow knowing that this was a moment I would never forget in my life. We passionately kissed as the rain drops got thicker and thicker. The thunder was very loud as we made love, but the whole day seemed so perfect. One of the most amazing love making times I will surely never forget.
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2. love myself
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3. have no regrets
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5. find time to play
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6. Send a postcard to Postsecret
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7. give my parents as much as they have given me
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8. get married
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9. NOT see or contact him in any way/any form for 60 days
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10. Fall in love
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11. go to Africa
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12. Have a totally different life by this time next year
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13. Compare myself to no one, but who I was yesterday
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14. live my dreams instead of dreaming my life
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15. get paid to blog
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16. fall in love with someone who loves me too
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17. Learn to say no
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18. balance lust and love
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19. learn to deal with deadlines better.
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20. go to another country
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21. create my own advice column
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22. learn to trust
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23. Develop a habit of writing every day
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24. trust someone completely and find they were worth it
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25. learn what "to love" really means
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26. forgive
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27. stop being so serious all the time
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28. write a story
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29. laugh every day
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30. list three things every day that made me happy
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31. Meet the love of my life
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32. stop worrying
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33. write a novel
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34. create love
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35. read the Bible in a year
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36. move on
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my whole life i have been lied to over and over again and abused and neglected and also betrayed and taken advantage of.
I want someone to prove to me that not everyone lies and not everyone wants to hurt you.
I may be younger than most of you who are on this site, but I assure you, I’m just as mature. He was my first real boyfriend. We were together for 10 1/2 months. Which, even to a little kid, is attatchment for a long time. He said he ended things because he’s not ready for a relationship, and I think that’s funny.. because in the beginning, I wasn’t either. He’s a year older than me, and I was the one who felt I wasn’t ready. But I stayed with him until I was ready. And now that I am, he isn’t. Relationships are a game with the mind and heart. They’re there to test you on how weak you are. And if you overcome them, you get the honor of laughing at the test and proving you are stronger. Relationships are there to teach you lessons, marraige is your reward. And unfortunately.. your first love is hardly ever your reward.
It’s only been a day, and I have already learned what most people learn months after the break up. This is only a test to see how weak I am. And you know what? I’m stronger than any guy that has ever broken my heart. This break up will hurt me like hell, but I’M ONLY THAT MUCH STRONGER.


