I'm doing 34 things
I don’t know who I am and what’s inside of me (most of the time) and therefore I don’t know what to do in & wih my life. I have been sitting in front of my computer all day long, watching my fav series. I should have been studying but will have to do so at night. Whenever I do this instead if doing my duties, I feel like I’m a little more inside myself than usually, and then I know that what I’m doing is not what inspires me, lifts me up or gives my life meaning. Inside me is something that loves beauty and expression and excitement, and I don’t have the faintest idea what I am supposed to do with this. I used to think I wanted to be a singer or an actress, but singing has turned out to be just a hobby for me, and when I took an acting class, I failed completely – I just can’t do it, it seems. I also lack the motivation to “be” or play someone else. I think what fascinates me about the actors in really good movies and TV shows is how these people feel so free and wild to me… that is something I definitely miss in my own life, as well. Maybe I’ve just been looking in the wrong places, maybe I shouldn’t concern myself with what I should do with my life jobwise (I know I should), maybe the solution lies in some other area of my life.. who knows? I have a sense that taking more risks and worrying less will change much for me, so I am working on that. But there is something else inside of me that wants to be acknowledged and worked with and expressed. How? Where to start? What to do? I have no idea but appreciate any inspiration that hopefully will come my way.
yellow_sunrise's Life List
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1. book a cheap flight or train ride to Berlin tomorrow
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2. buy a cheap and good digital camera
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3. go to Berlin
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4. leave the country and travel soon, cause I feel am slowly going crazy from the boredom and lack of interesting things and peolpe in my life.
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5. contact people on couchsurfing.com and look for other ways to stay in Berlin cheaply.
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6. write my thesis
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7. get a better job
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8. finish my degree
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9. overcome my personal problems by doing psychotherapy and start living my life in a totally different way
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10. move to a warm country
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11. learn surfing
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12. find out what the hell i want to do with my life
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13. develop my spirituality
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14. find out what my grandfather did during World War II
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15. find true friends
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16. drive again
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17. learn Hebrew
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18. see rammstein live
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19. Change my last name
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20. move to the countryside
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21. see Radiohead live
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23. be in New Zealand and learn Maori
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24. learn horse riding
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25. learn how to be in a relationship.
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26. find a father figure
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27. share
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28. find true love
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29. Lose weight and get fit
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30. make an appointment with my doctor to have my yearly health check up and discuss some other issues
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31. be straight edge
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32. go to a star trek convention
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33. have a sexy kickboxer-boyfriend
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34. Be a kickboxer!
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I want to go next week, don’t know for how long. I can’t take staying at home any longer, and I’ve imagined what iti si like to be there for quite some time now. There are other places I want to see, too, but I’ve got to start somewhere, so why not there? I hope it will be an exciting trip with many new experiences for me, which means that I hopefully won’t stay in hostels, drinking with the other travellers every evening.
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3 weeks ago
This is important. I really don’t have much money, and most of my travel money is normally used for staying in hostels, and there’s nothing cheaper than that, except these social networks that allow you to get to know new people and stay at their place for free.
