yellowsubmarine46

I hate being this way. I tell myself i’ll change; i try to think positively. But it never works. I always end up sitting in a corner being antisocial. And whenever i absolutely have to talk in front of people, i get nervous and start shaking. It’s so embarassing.
And i do and say a lot of idiotic things. Isn’t it better to be perceived as shy rather than a stupid bitch? Maybe i just need to stop thinking what other people might think of me. God this is so hard! i don’t know how to start.
Everything’s difficult before it’s easy right? I just need to be strong i guess. Who am i kidding? I’ll give up before i even start.
No. I’m gonna try harder every time i fail. i hope.