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Hmm… first of all, I think that this goal is really a huge metaphor. Here we all are; plopped onto the interstate system of life with no road map (ok, so maybe one or two, but they’re for like the middle of Sweden or something), a tank of gas, and what the hell, sometimes god throws in some quarters for the tolls. I try to take as many detours as possible.
However, in a literal sense, I really would like to do this. Someday my friend is going to buy an airsteam (if Bob Dylan doesn’t give her one first :)) and perhaps she’ll let me go on an adventure with her and her grandmother. Or perhaps I will hop on a train to nowhere, and just watch the trees go by…

I threw a hexagram with the I-Ching the other day, to try and see what advice it had to give me about my life in gerenal. I was feeling very stressed out, and it identified that right away. It gave me the hexagram “Mountain,” and it told me very clearly that meditation would be the best way to counter this.
I find meditation to be hard, as my mind does not easily give up its tight grip upon my being, and thoughts are hard to release, even for a few minutes. But I feel that when I can achive a state of meditation, it feels amazing. However, I still need to work on doing it more often. This is a great goal to have.

I’ve “found” happiness and discovered that happiness cannot truly be found. It isn’t something you search for; some elusive thing that hides itself in the form of money, or chocolate, or achiving a goal… happiness is something that we create for ourselves, that is a conscious descision we make. So I suggest not merely searching for things that make you happy, but internalizing the idea and becoming happy from the inside out. Only you have the power to make yourself truly happy.

A simple pleasure, but happiness nonetheless: to sink your hands into the rich soil; to grow your own roots from your heart into the earth. The squishing and squelching feels so good and so… good. To help start a life with your bare muddy hands. I really need to do it more often.

“Go team, go!” Give me an L. Give me an I. Give me a V. Give me an E. L-I-V-E. LIVE! Otherwise, you got nothing to talk about in the locker room.”
I think this quote from Harold and Maude pretty much sums it up. Life… is life. So why not make it be love, too?

well, at least i won’t have to worry about remembering to check off “i’ve done this”.

just imagine- a clear heart and an empty mind. someday, i will baptise myself in love and let the universe pour into me. someday.