yknot

I got to bed each night vowing that it will be different tomorrow and it never is. Today I’ve binged and purged twice. It is Sunday and I woke up late. I needed to go to the office so I got up and tried to eat breakfast. Mistake. Ended up bingeing on everything edible in my house. Another $30 down the toilet. Then I walked to work feeling lightheaded. Lasted for two hours and then headed home to binge again. stopping on the way. I’ve gained weight and I hate how I look. It’s like it is consuming my life and keeping me in this spiral. I have no idea what to do anymore.

I had a bad day and was looking for some inspiration and I came across this site. I want to share my struggles with the world sometimes because otherwise I just get all mushed in my head and I never make any progress or work things out. So I googled and saw someone’s entry and it made me think that sharing my struggle was a good idea.

I find my eating issues difficult to talk about. I am not sure exactly what my plan is. I know I need a balanced approach that addresses stress and self love. I’ve read some books in the past but always shoved them aside because they were too hard to follow.

I am tired of fear and self loathing holding myself back.