we were dating. he was a complete jerk. but he was the first guy who would take me out, and give me lots of attention, and ACT like he gave a shit. i knew he was just going to use me. i just wanted him to stay with me because he was the only guy i had. i said no so many times, but eventually i just did what he wanted. i thought the few times he was really nice and sweet to me made up for all the times he treated me like shit.. well not really. he just used me for sex and now i feel cheap and used and STUPID.
he’s out of my life forever, he doesnt want me anymore. and WOW do i regret wasting it on him. i’m 18 by the way.
zephyr_gurl's Life List
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1. overcome my shyness
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2. Stop cutting
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3. travel the world
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4. be more confident
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5. Tell my parents I love them
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6. change my negative frame of mind into a positive one
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7. take more risks
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8. write down something POSITIVE about myself or about my life or just something good about the world EVERYDAY
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9. Be less shy
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10. Be a better friend
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11. like myself
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12. see a comet
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13. hug more
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14. stop being shy and be MYSELF!
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15. backpack through Europe
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16. make a difference
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17. inspire someone
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18. actually learn to play my guitar
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19. See a total solar eclipse
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20. Go skiing
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21. Go ice skating at an outdoor ice skating rink.
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22. find a message in a bottle
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23. walk my dog more
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24. have conversations late into the night with fascinating people
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25. love and be loved
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26. go swimming again
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27. Save money
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28. be happy
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29. Go to a Formula 1 race
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30. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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31. stop blushing
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32. get my restricted drivers license
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33. post random questions daily and see if anyone plays with me and answers them :)
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34. Save $10,000
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35. learn to ice skate backwards
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36. get over him
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37. be more social
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38. do one thing every day that scares me
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39. Try something new every week
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40. ask someone out
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41. spend more time with my grandparents
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42. get a summer job
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43. not spend the money in my savings jar
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Recent entries
i knew him about 6 weeks
1 month ago
he's my friend. just my friend.
7 months ago
we are barely even friends anymore.. i need to get over it
years, months later and i am still doing this
9 months ago
i feel like nobody can help me i need to do it myself
