Jonmark Belciña

being happy is too broad. too deep to construed. sometimes we thought we already have it and sometimes we felt we already knew the core definition of it despite of the signs and warnings taht it brought to us and the precoutions that it has we still insist and in the end it leads us to nowhere, we thought that we are complete but still it isn’t what it seems to be. everything needs to be balanced our emotions, physical conditions, spiritual beliefs, social communications..elements which needs to be in proper equilibrium. recently i tried a hundred of times to understand that concept and until now im striving to be afloat and feel the redemption inside to search for the answer. i wanted to be happy just like anyone else but i wanted to be happy in a good way that it’ll not affect the balancing of my own four concept, anyone of us wanted to be part of the so called elysium of happiness right that why i wanted to grab that opportunity and fill in the blank inside me. i thought ive done this but i need to talk alot to myself and intertwine with my ego’s deepest behavior.—

i often do it to everyone..eventhough they didn’t return the favor..but its still 100% cool. i myself feel better when someone give a positive compliment at me..it makes me feel lighter and more persistent to go along with the great flow of the worlds evolution. and I wanted to do the same to them too….i knew that it’ll affect their way of thinking too..make them beautiful is like alleviating their minor suffering.

I donated my blood in the redcross last 2 years ago. i prepared a lot for that day, i did exercised, regular diet and constant assesment of myself, i wanted my blood to be cleansed before i decided to give it. here in our country its worth a bucks but i decided to just donate it rather taking something from it, my blood is precious, priceless and really worthful for people who badly needed one. it took up 2 years before I planned again to donate my blood next month because i abused myslelf for the past 2 years, like smoking, drinking liquor constantly and a lot of hilarious, dangerous intake materials. today i’m currently craving myself to clean up my blood even if the my environment is really not good at all. here poverty indures people to give and take something even if their blood is at stake. im hoping that not by just donating my blood next month i could also enlightens people’s mind that blood is worth giving and i’ll start it with my cohort who always at my side.