zorastrus

Well, a year ago I really wanted a good personal website. Now I have made it. It doesn’t, yet, have the scope I wanted, but it is still very much a work in progress. I have the design down and I have uploaded some old movie reviews of mine. Now that school has been out for a bit, I will definitely get to writing more content. You can visit the site at http://zorastrus.50webs.com

I used to be a horribly shy person. I would rarely talk, but when I did, it was hugely something that people liked, that interested them, that made them like me. I couldn’t even order food in a restaurant in fear of messing it up, or it not being my turn, and thus the waiter or waitress is annoyed by me – I ruined their day.

Now, I am the opposite. I am loud, annoying, rude and outgoing. I absolutely hate the monster that I have become. The depression is somewhat gone, thanks to medications, but this has been replaced by me becoming a person I don’t want to be – and making life even more miserable, if not internally (like it used to be), then externally, in that I ruin everything and do things I immediately regret and hate myself for. I need to calm down.

Then I won’t have to use a dictionary every time I read the works of that prolific genius, Anthony Burgess.

Oh, yea, and to be able to talk better, write more interestingly, and read all the greats and that kind of stuff.