zynia

didn’t eat fattening sweets yesterday. mum hogged abt 1000 cals of them. but i had tiniest bite in afternoon & none at dinner!!! wow! i saved myself so much of exercise & worse than that- sweat! :)

had some really tough time for one week. physically i was sick. had bad case of tonsillitis accompanied by one of the worst PMS (and i have major PMS problem), and later on periods (obv). had to fill out a HUGE form and copy every document 4 times (in all it weighed 1 kg i think). at every step things went wrong. wrong sized paper, net died, printer stopped printing. it was week from hell. i cried and cried and…

but in the end everything worked fine. i’m good now. not worrying abt my bro’s problem. but has to work on my studies. i started exercising today bcuz till day before yest i was still having fever. i’m controlling my portions.

my weight is still the same. thank god it hasn’t increased the way i hogged on a few days (but still not much considering my emotional state)!!

mom is planning to start morning walk. maybe i will join her (if i was not so much afraid of stray dogs). till the stationary bike rules!

here to better days..!!! :)

my brother says he is depressed and is not going for his post graduation. my parents almost paid 200,000 US dollars as his college admission.

he was the one who selected the college and did all the formalities. but after a month he just backed out. my parents are very depressed as there is no one to handle their practice after this.

my bro is not even thinking about an alternate career. he has no sense of responsibility. and being depressed at one time i know that he is really not depressed, he has just gotten so used to leisure of life, where he gets everything at home without working a single second for it. and… the whole of the money is gone!

i’ve entirely different reasons to be pissed (& to be many other things) because i waited for almost 6 months for my bro to go back and pick up where he left. i postponed the discussion of my career for him.

he was supposed to undergo therapy and learn from our local doctors so that he feel more comfortable at his college. but he spent almost all that time sitting in front of the computer. i’m really upset (angry? frustrated? blue? anxious?) because my parents wasted so much money on him and i don’t know if they will be able to pay tuition for my choice of post graduate course.

i’m really down at this time and have no time to think about ‘being healthy’. gotta sort out my career first. but i’ll try to control my emotional eating and continue whatever exercise i can get into my schedule.

one this is for sure… i’m not gonna wait for anything to move further in my chosen direction in career.

wish me luck, guys…
and if u read through this long post… thanks :) u r so kind.