Rudiano Bambino

....help comes from unexpected sources…Friends, opportunity through employers, even through banks (reluctantly but it seems its on its way)...my mind is freer to tackle my life’s misalignment with my values. I know I can do it. I have to. Otherwise i wont be growing, I will be dying inside a little more each day….That is NOT my calling. 3 months ago

Why you all in her grill? (see what I did there?) I will rescue Emu. If I fail, praying Kitty will not. 3 months ago

My girlfriend comes before my mate if that’s what you mean. 3 months ago

Especially when she knows she can lose you to me, cause as I’m flipping irresistible! :D 3 months ago

The emu loves chocolate liqueur…It so happens that I’m all covered with chocolate and I’m intoxicating…. You shoulnt have ignored her. :P 3 months ago

I did increase traffic, the fiverr gigs worked… now I need to work out how to engage with my audience, and then the trickiest part will be to get them to act… 3 months ago

And no, you’re alright, there’s not enough alcohol in chocolate liqueur…even less in virtual ones so you’re safe! Actually haven’t done enough music lately….I’m correcting that. It’s never a good thing to stop doing what you like, especially when you need something to lift your mood…. 3 months ago

I’m touched! And well done, I envy you…. I’m far from finishing… Where can we read your story again?
:) 3 months ago

Errr…Nah! :P 3 months ago

Delightfully worded! I’m sorry about you feeling down in the dumps… I miss the sun and blue sky too…But Spring is on its way! Chin up Emu, here’s some chocolate liqueur to help (don’t eat it all at once!) 3 months ago

Oh, actually yes, I think I’ve been to the perfect place for me, although I only stayed one day so not sure what it would really be like to live there.
I think it was Trois-Ilets in Martinique, in the carribean. The sun shining on the brightly-coloured houses made it all seem so dreamy, even for an islander like me… and there was the beach, not many people, it felt so relaxing…Man!!! What the heck am I doing in England??? :P 3 months ago

1. Get Fiverr to drive traffic to my blog
2. Get fiver to drive traffic to my NWYs website
3. Evaluate
4. Get Fiverr to design manga avatar that actually looks like me
5. Get designs for my Redbubble range (one a month ideally)
6. Promote with Fiverr.
7. Rethink my Youtube content (“The adventures of Rudiano” or something like that. Snappy, less random, purposeful and mildly entertaining at least)
8. Boost my views on Youtube
9. Create an opt-in landing page
10. Create whiteboard animations/videos as part of the landing page

I really hope I can believe the hype!!! Let’s see. 3 months ago

I just can’t understand why?? :P 3 months ago

” a recreational and competitive activity where participants, using shotguns, attempt to break clay disks automatically flung into the air from two fixed stations at high speed from a variety of angles”.
You learn stuff everyday (mostly useless stuff but hey, learning is learning) :P 3 months ago

Yup, presidency doesn’t seem to be good for ones figure… 3 months ago

Indeed… :D 3 months ago

Very interesting…I thought personally it was a bit of a faux pas, so soon after the school shooting… I’m not even living in the US and that’s still in my conciousness… Hmmm 3 months ago

That’s US president Obama skeet shooting. Do you approve/not approve/don’t care/think he looks cool/think he looks like he doesn’t know what he’s doing?

Whatever

:) 3 months ago

Reinvigorate:

1. Got in touch with my biggest needs: Freedom and creativity
2. Improved my physical environment (car and room)
3. Picked up the writing again
4. Picked up the guitar again
5. Picked up the keyboard again

Reinvent

1. Found somewhere to move to and start afresh

Once I have moved, I can focus on becoming who I want to be:

1. Organized
2. Productive
3. Consistant
4. Creative
5. Free

There is no point fighting the INFP in me, I just have to be smart about making it work in my favour in the real world as much as possible… 3 months ago

Today I’m grateful for:

1. Better health
2. Breathing space financially speaking
3. Spirituality
4. Possibilities 3 months ago

I put 3 chapters online (http://www.wattpad.com/story/3977715-the-equation-of-everything) and hopefully should be working on finishing the story later….Definitely won’t finish today (unless I can find inspiration for 40,000 more words but as I’m ill in bed, with no voice, I might as well work on this!)
Feel free to critique, all feedback welcome (just no cursing please!) :P 3 months ago

You’re right, making a mountain out of a mole hill! I’ve let go of this particular slip up…It’s just that I’m afraid it can be a bit of a pattern and I feel I need to break away from it somehow. It annoys me, hampers my growth… I know I can do better in life and I must do better….dunno if I’m making sense? :P 3 months ago

...do I keep operating from my past, even describing myself in terms of what I was like rather than what I am like? Where is that “refresh” button in my brain!? Actually it’s right here, alongside “introspection”. I tend to get so lost in introspection, I forget to click “refresh” every now and then. Anyway. Enough with the riddles. What prompted this unnecessarily wordy post is just the fact that in conversation I told a friend when I play the piano to an audience, they have to be fans otherwise they won’t know what I’m playing cause it’s always mine. That might have been true 2 years ago but now I do quite a number of covers (pop I’m afraid, working slowly on classical but not quite there yet) so why the heck did I say that??? I don’t even know myself lol 3 months ago

Leaving the hellish house behind! Yay! that’s reinvigorating in itself!
I have to give my landlord a month’s notice and in the meantime I will get rid of as much stuff as I can to facilitate the move. Got a few items to sell too.
Then I can reinvent myself at leisure!
Light at the end of the tunnel at last… 3 months ago

That makes sense! Glad I got your perspective on this :) 4 months ago

My Caribbean blood protests in me (but can’t boil) because having to carry on as normal in this cold is unnatural. I have to fight the urge to hibernate. Why does mankind always have to fight Mother Nature??
On the other side, my brain is in awe of the beauty of snow and the way it transforms even the ugliest of landscapes into a work of art….

Full of contradictions, moi? :P 4 months ago

It could be that females have better judgement for these things or that they don’t admit to being as bad as we are…Once upon a time I would have gone for the former but I have had experience of this one beautiful girl I liked who mistook my being cool and relaxed to not being interested…But I was just trying not to mess up while trying to get closer…And many a time, just because I didn’t pounce on them(I don’t mean literally lol), girls got frustrated and left…wrong types I guess… Admittedly I am a snail in relationships. It takes time for me to trust, and I want my woman to be my best friend, not just my lover. That can’t happen overnight… innit! 4 months ago

No chance with J, she definitely isn’t into me, I’ve had female friends analyse her behaviour with me and they say it’s quite plain. She’s too young anyway. I thought she was older. Oh well. I don’t care all that much right now. Got enough on my plate to keep me busy and distracted :P 4 months ago

Today I’m grateful for:

1. Jah’s forgiveness
2. Man’s perfectibility
3. Love and support from my friends
4. Being away from my hellish house
5. Good food
6. Being spiritually and emotionally upbuilt today 4 months ago